秘密の夢

Hey Baby, Hey Baby, Hey!

I learned just recently that one of my sort-of co-workers is pregnant.  (I say "sort-of" because we work in the same place, just not in the same department.)  I'm pretty much the last to know, despite the fact that I have class with her and see her on a semi-regular basis.

I found out she was pregnant when her supervisor asked me if I knew her, then asked if I wanted to sign a card that they were giving to her.

"Oh, is she leaving?" I asked.

"Well," replied the supervisor.  "She's expecting, so she's going to be going home for the summer and she won't be coming back."

Cue brain fart!  I didn't even know she was pregnant.  She's the second pregnant girl that I know about.  The other girl who is/was pregnant is currently on leave because she's due next week.

This kind of makes me wish that I was having a baby too...  Although 1) I so can not afford it right now; 2) I'd be afraid of the pain involved in giving birth; 3) my boyfriend is in Texas and if I got pregnant now...he'd be kinda suspicious.

I think I'm feeling like this because it's around that time of the month where I get crazy ideas in my head.

I kind of want to have a baby soon...but for the wrong reasons.  ^^;;  I want to be able to show my baby to my grandma and be like, "You're a great grandma!  Also, I had a baby!"

Haha!  No, I think she'd be happy to get to hold a baby again.  Plus...I don't know.  She's got mild Alzheimer's.  When I took her to the doctor a few weeks ago, I got called into the exam room.  He was administering a test to her where she had to draw the hands and numbers of a clock at 11:15.  She kept erasing and drawing and couldn't remember which were the hour and minute hands.  She also kept repeatedly asking about a piece of paper she had to give to the doctor...which she'd already given.

The doctor ended up giving us a prescription for some medication to help slow down the effects of Alzheimer's.  He said it won't completely cure it...but it will help for now.  She's only in the mild stages, so we're lucky.

I think part of the reason I want to have a baby soon is so that I can introduce them while my grandma still knows who I am.

But I know that's the wrong reason to have a baby and I know that I'm not ready for it right now.  I wish I were, but I'm not.  I hope that by the time I actually do get around to having a baby, it won't be too late.  I think my other grandma was much more fragile...so she didn't make it to my graduation...she also wanted to see me dance in the Merrie Monarch, but she never did because I never did take hula.  I feel kind of bad about that...

I know I can't do anything at this point...but yeah...  I still wish I could do something...

Workin' Hard

I'm on break from work!  I have about six minutes left.  XD

I talked to a few of my co-workers just to get an idea of how many people would be working this summer, and it really seems like we're going to be severely short-handed.  Two people are graduating, and a good number of our students are from out-of-state, so they'd probably be going back to their respective homes over the summer.  Of the ones that are from this state and staying here over the summer, most of them are going to try and find second jobs or already have second or third jobs already.

All in all, not a very good situation considering that we're going to be moving everything from the second floor up to the third floor.  Which includes my department, plus the several other departments in the back (receiving, cataloging, periodicals, etc.).  Not to mention the fact that we'll have to pack up the entire reference collection, the Hawaiian collection and the entire A-G collection.  I'm not even sure where they're gonna go, because downstairs is pretty much full and the third floor is going to have to house the Hawaiian collection PLUS all of the library staff offices/areas.

Yeah.  Not good.

On another note, I'm loving the computer I'm on.  It's making me wish I had a desktop.  XD

But no, I have to save up.  T_T  I'm going to run out of health insurance coverage under my mom on the 14th (when I turn 24) so ... I shall have to research other forms of health insurance.  I'm already leaning towards one provider that's not listed under the COBRA thing that was sent to me, but keeping the dental plan that's provided for under COBRA.

And yes.  When I saw COBRA, all I could think of was G.I. Joe.  I don't even know what it stands for, but apparently it's some kind of Federal Law thing.

COBRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

お久しぶり！

Wow.  It's been 27 days since my last post.

I have a good excuse though!

School!!!

That, and a friend from Chicago came down and was here for two weeks.  We were pretty excited and had a pretty good time while she was here.  Everyone stayed at my house for the two weeks.  In my sister's room, of course, since my room is pretty tiny.  I didn't sleep in the same room as them, though, since I was only able to get part of one week off from work, and my schedule usually required me to get up at 6:00 a.m.  Which would be about two or three hours after they'd gone to sleep.

I'm trying to catch up on classwork.  I've got two essays due on the same day that I have not done anything for.  *sigh*  This is going to be bad...

But at least it's the end of the semester.  If I fail this semester, I'll just get put on Academic Probation.

Again.

Ha!