I learned just recently that one of my sort-of co-workers is pregnant. (I say "sort-of" because we work in the same place, just not in the same department.) I'm pretty much the last to know, despite the fact that I have class with her and see her on a semi-regular basis.
I found out she was pregnant when her supervisor asked me if I knew her, then asked if I wanted to sign a card that they were giving to her.
"Oh, is she leaving?" I asked.
"Well," replied the supervisor. "She's expecting, so she's going to be going home for the summer and she won't be coming back."
Cue brain fart! I didn't even know she was pregnant. She's the second pregnant girl that I know about. The other girl who is/was pregnant is currently on leave because she's due next week.
This kind of makes me wish that I was having a baby too... Although 1) I so can not afford it right now; 2) I'd be afraid of the pain involved in giving birth; 3) my boyfriend is in Texas and if I got pregnant now...he'd be kinda suspicious.
I think I'm feeling like this because it's around that time of the month where I get crazy ideas in my head.
I kind of want to have a baby soon...but for the wrong reasons. ^^;; I want to be able to show my baby to my grandma and be like, "You're a great grandma! Also, I had a baby!"
Haha! No, I think she'd be happy to get to hold a baby again. Plus...I don't know. She's got mild Alzheimer's. When I took her to the doctor a few weeks ago, I got called into the exam room. He was administering a test to her where she had to draw the hands and numbers of a clock at 11:15. She kept erasing and drawing and couldn't remember which were the hour and minute hands. She also kept repeatedly asking about a piece of paper she had to give to the doctor...which she'd already given.
The doctor ended up giving us a prescription for some medication to help slow down the effects of Alzheimer's. He said it won't completely cure it...but it will help for now. She's only in the mild stages, so we're lucky.
I think part of the reason I want to have a baby soon is so that I can introduce them while my grandma still knows who I am.
But I know that's the wrong reason to have a baby and I know that I'm not ready for it right now. I wish I were, but I'm not. I hope that by the time I actually do get around to having a baby, it won't be too late. I think my other grandma was much more fragile...so she didn't make it to my graduation...she also wanted to see me dance in the Merrie Monarch, but she never did because I never did take hula. I feel kind of bad about that...
I know I can't do anything at this point...but yeah... I still wish I could do something...
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